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hello! it's been quite a while since i've written in here... i've tried to a couple of times, but then i just can't think of what i want to type so i just end up giving up, i'll try harder this time though!

so this week is the 4th week of earth camp (the 2nd week with the kids) and, as always, i absolutely love it. it's such a great job- sometimes exhausting, but so great. i love being able to work with kids, and i love the people that i work with. it's so great to wake up in the morning and look forward to going to work. i hope when i have a "real job" i can feel that way. i guess if i don't feel that way then i know i haven't found the right career. and it's wonderful to be able to work with people that you love to see everyday. (i love you guys!! :-* )

i've started doing 19th century dancing at the museum, and it's so much fun! it took quite a bit of begging the first night, but i got jeff to come with me and he really likes it too so now we go every week! (thanks jeffrey!! :-D ) the guy that runs it constantly stops to lecture "the group" about something that is going wrong while looking directly at us, but that doesn't discourage us!! lol

let's see... what else is new... oh- after a year of not having a car, i finally got one about a month ago! nana got a new car, so she gave me her old one... not exactly the best looking car in the world, and not exactly in the best condition, but i don't care at all; i'm just SO HAPPY to have a car again- it's so annoying not having one.

well i think it's time for me to go to bed... my group this week is so tiring! let me leave you with the lovely song that is constantly in my head:

baby shark do do da do do do
baby shark do do da do do do
baby shark do do da do do do
baby shark
mama shark do do da do do do
mama shark do do da do do do
mama shark do do da do do do
mama shark
daddy shark do do da do do do
daddy shark do do da do do do
daddy shark do do da do do do
daddy shark
grandma shark do do da do do do
grandma shark do do da do do do
grandma shark do do da do do do
grandma shark
going swimming do do da do do do
going swimming do do da do do do
going swimming do do da do do do
going swimming
shark attack do do da do do do
shark attack do do da do do do
shark attack do do da do do do
shark attack
cpr do do da do do do
cpr do do da do do do
cpr do do da do do do
cpr
no affect do do da do do do
no affect do do da do do do
no affect do do da do do do
no affect
that's the end do do da do do do
that's the end do do da do do do
that's the end do do da do do do
that's the end

i can't believe i just typed that whole thing... lol... wait... yes i can. ;-)

i haven't written in here in a while bc i've been so busy lately, but yesterday was my last day of classes, and i only have one very easy final tomorrow so now i have lots of time to write!! this semester was so busy, but for the most part i really liked it. all of my classes were really useful and/or interesting. i didn't have to take any classes that made me question why i am even going to college (like i did at geneseo), and i think that from now on most of my classes are going to be ones that actually apply to what i want to do for the rest of my life! i can't believe how fast this semester has gone by. actually, i can't believe how fast this whole year has gone by! i hope the next two years go by as fast as this one has!

so alex and i decided to keep this apartment for next year. originally we were planning on moving out, and then getting a new apartment for next year so that we wouldn't have to pay rent in the summer, but our parents said they'd help us out with summer rent, and it would be way too much of a pain in the ass to move anyway so we're just gonna live here for the next couple of years. i lke this apartment for the most part, though, so i really don't mind staying here. while we're gone this summer our landlord is going to make some much needed repairs so that will make it even better! so anyway, to sum up this paragraph: every single one of you reading this better come visit several times in the next two years!! :-D

i love the relient k song that's playing right now:
i'm getting into you
because you got to me
in a way words can't describe
i'm getting into you
because i've got to be
you're essential to survive

that's such a great song. i've been listening to a lot of christian music lately and i really like it. since my church is full of old people (along with the entire presbyterian denomination) we always sing traditional, old, slow, quiet songs (with the exception of a few that i love), and when i get to hear more contemporary, more joyful, louder worship songs i love it. that is what worship is to me- singing a wonderful song as loud as you want, and dancing and smiling, and clapping! i think i need to go to ryan and anne's church a lot more this summer because that's the kind of worship they have! since my house is around the corner from a monestary (which most of you know), a few of us went to a vespers service last summer. i was all excited bc i thought they would sound beautiful and i was really looking forward to hearing their peaceful chants. afterwards though, i walked out feeling almost disappointed; they did not seem at peace and full of God's love and happy to worship- they seemed sad and withdrawn and empty. i know that this is probably not the case, and this was the life that they chose, but i just find it so hard to believe that that is how God wants us to worship Him. in my mind, he wants us to sing with passion and love and feel happy when we sing to Him. the bible says "make a joyful noise unto the Lord." i'm not saying there is only one way to worship God, i'm just saying that i know what my way is! i think that faith is a very personal thing though, so i think that everyone should do what feels right for them, no matter what it is! that's why i have a problem with evangalists- i think that, rather than pushing your religion on others, you should just make others aware of your faith and be a friendly, open person so that when they begin to be curious about it they know they can ask you. finding faith is personal, and happens from the inside out. i've felt a lot more in touch with God lately, and my faith has become increasingly important to me- it's a great feeling!

so again, i'm thiking about earth camp!! it starts in approximately 41 days!! who's excited?! i know i talk about it way too much, but now that it's getting nice out i've been thinking about it, and i'm so excited bc the theme is bugs again!! not to mention i get to hang out with starling and junebug and captain pignut and sloth and raven and jackleope all summer!!! :-D

alright well i think i'm gonna go outside and read bc it's beautiful out, and bc i can now read at my own speed- i don't have to worry about reading 50 pages a day of each novel so that i can keep up with an insane reading schedule!!

have a wonderful day everyone!! i love you! :-* :-D

Current Mood: accomplished
Current Music: the country/christian mix i made for my mom

i've been trying since approx. 11:00AM to write my charles dickens paper, but i still do not have even one word typed. i've looked up some information about it, and i've started to make an outline to use to help me, but i can't organize my thoughts enough to actually write the paper. i've been doing an excessive amount of work since saturday and i think it's finally starting to wear me out. this is the last paper i have to write, and the last major assignment i have to do before the end of the semester, and i really wanted to get it done today so i wouldn't have to worry about it anymore, but that is definitely not working out. grrr it's hard to work on stuff when alex is home bc he is constantly doing something to distract me- playing his guitar, playing music, watching tv. and it's hard for me to get stuff done in computer labs at school bc there are so many distractions there too. I JUST WANT TO BE DONE WITH THIS PAPER!! "so why don't you just stop procrastinating and write your paper?!" you ask...... that's what i've been trying to do ALL DAY!!

okay enough about the stupid paper... i get to spend this weekend with jenny and leah!! who's excited?! i'm so happy that i get to not think about school work and be with you two this whole weekend!! i love you guys! then next week beth is coming here on thursday to spend the night and then we're gonna go home on friday so i can be home to see nana (bc she's coming home from florida) and my aunt crystal and so i can be home for mother's day. that'll be fun too!! i miss my "little" sister and i love being able to spend time her. love you be!

as i'm sure i've mentioned several times in several journal entries... every time i think about how much i want this semester to end i think of camp starting, and that makes me think of my star-fruit-fish-ling (aka manda). i miss you and i love you manda, and i can't wait until the summer when we can see eachother every day! :-* speaking of camp- bob would be happy to know that i attended a jewish festival this past weekend! hehe it was isreili (sp?) independence day and most importantly there was free food. lol jk- it was fun; i made a key chain with my name in hebrew which i'm pretty sure is completely incorrect bc the guy that was helping us make them seemed to not have the slightest idea as to what he was doing. lol

alright well i guess i'm gonna give this paper another try... maybe...

i hope you're all having a wonderful day! :-D

Current Mood: frustrated
Current Music: whatever al is listening to

jenny's journal entry said that i, along with everyone else, should update our journals, and i always listen to jenny so here goes!:

i'm so happy that it's warm out today!! it's looking pretty cloudy out there though- it better not rain!

i now have 3 more weeks of class, then finals week. i can't wait until the semester is over- this semester has been CRAZY! the next few weeks are gonna be even crazier though! grrr i have 4 papers to write, A LOT of reading to do, three presentations to plan, and a portfolio to put together. i don't think that any of that stuff is really gonna be that hard, it's just all so time consuming!

we changed our living room around the other day! it's kind of hard to explain how it looks now, but we made it so that alex has a place to put all of his music stuff so he doesn't have to keep it all in the closet and various other parts of the apartment! now he has everything out and all together and it looks good! i'm kind of insane about organization so this is a very good arrangement!!

i'm excited that jenny, adam, jordan and leah are gonna be living on conesus lake this summer- it'll be so much fun to hang out there with everyone!! and it's closer than driving to canandaigua to hang out. and we'll get to go swimming in the lake and stuff!! so now everyone will be close by for the summer- except ben- move closer, loser, you're screwing up everything!! hehe i can't wait for the summer!!

well i think i'm gonna go outside and enjoy the warm weather! i hope this entry was adequate, jenny!! i love you!! :-D

have a wonderful day everyone!

the weather was so nice today!! i'm so glad it finally actually feels like spring outside! i'm gonna be so depressed if it gets cold out again!

despite the awesome weather, i felt kinda down today for a lot of reasons- i just felt lonely. i don't know anyone well enough here to hang out with them, and alex has been gone all day bc he has a show in buffalo tonight. beth is coming to visit me today, but i thought she was coming earlier so i was disappointed when she told me she wasn't gonna be here until 8. greg was in oneonta last night and part of today, but i didn't get to see him. jenny and leah were at jenny's house this weekend, and i wish i could have gone with them. i just thought of all of these things and got all sad... it was stupid. i walked outside, down to a little park, and layed on a blanket and did some work- it made me feel better to be outside on such a gorgeous day! i just wish that all my friends weren't 3.5+ hours away. i did get to hang out with some people last night that alex knows bc he plays shows with them a lot... that was fun; they're all really nice guys... it would be cool to have at least someone here that i can just go and talk to and do things with. i know it's partly my fault that i don't really know people here- i haven't been open or outgoing enough, but it's hard too bc i transferred here as a junior, i don't live on campus so i can't meet people bc i'm living in a dorm or anything like that, and i'm shy when i don't know people. oh well... the day turned out to be okay, but i've just kind of had this sad feeling all day... i'm sure it'll be much better when bethany gets here!!

it's not that i don't like it here... i do. i love our apartment, and i love living here with alex. the school is nice, and the town is fine, and i'm not unhappy here at all... but i guess everyone has those days that they just feel kinda crappy. after this week we have a week off for spring break! actually it's more than a week bc we don't have to start school again until the tuesday after easter!! who's excited?! it'll be so nice to not have to worry about classes for a while... even though i'm sure i'll have plenty of reading to do while i'm home. speaking of reading, i just finished a really good book that i was reading for my women in lit. class... it was such an amazing book. it was called solar storms by linda hogan- if you can, you should definitely read it. it talked a lot about what humans have done to land and animals, and it really made me think. it just made me realize how much better the world could be right now, and how far beyond repair it is. other than the environmental aspect there were a bunch of really interesting sub-plots in the book... it was such a good book. i really don't mind reading for my lit. classes when i like the books- i do like reading, just not when i feel like i'm being forced to read something that would look better as a pile of smouldering ashes. lol

so let's see... what else can i talk about? i have to keep myself busy until be gets here! hmmmmm... yeah i can't think of anything so i guess i'll get going.

i hope you're having a wonderful day!

I found this in Leah's journal! Thanks for helping me procratinate Leah! Love you!!!!


1. Does love suck? no

2. Are you in love right now? yes :-D

3. Do you actually like being in love? of course!

4. Be honest. Did you answer that question truthfully?? of course!

5. What kind of crazy things has love made you do? listen to guitar playing almost nonstop... haha yeah i'm sticking w/leah's answer

6. Does love inspire you? yes

7. If so, what does it inspire you to do? to write, to be myself and be happy about it, to share love with everyone that i love!

8. When you love someone, do you feel a fluttery feeling in your heart? at first yes, but then it's much more than that

9. When you have a crush on someone, do you think you actually *love* someone? no... a crush isn't love, but it can turn into love

10. Do you believe in love at first sight? i'm not sure... i think you can have a connection with someone when you first see them, but i'm not sure you can say that you're automatically in love with them

11. Why or why not? read above

12. Would you ever want to be in love again? (If you're with someone, ask yourself honestly. Your significant other will never see this, I swear! If you weren't with him or her, do you think you'd love someone again?) i think i could, but i could never find the love that i have with alex... i know that for a fact

13. Do you think sex is an important part of love? if it's with someone that you truly love, yes, but it's not nearly the most important part

14. If you answered yes, you are definitely male.

15. When you dream of being broken up with your love (or have in the past, when you were actually still together), how did this make you feel? it just made me realize once again how lucky i am to have him, and how happy he makes me!

16. When you dream of being back with an ex, are you disappointed when you wake up? Be completely honest here! I know you'll be compelled to stretch the truth! nope not at all

17. So...are you sure you know if love sucks or not?? yep...it doesn't at all

18. When you're in love, do you think you actually think straight, especially when around the person you're in love with? yes

19. What's better? Sex, love, or chocolate? love of course!

20. Okay, now, what would you prefer...being with the person you do love (or did and broke up with, but would like to be with again...or even just a crush that you *really* think you love), OR a million dollars? definitely being with the person that i love... money can make things easier, but it can't make you happy like love can

21. Now, take that million dollars, and multiply it by ten. Would you still take that person over the money? most definitely!

22. This brings me to another random question that I was discussing at work the other day. If someone came up to you with a million bucks in cash, and told you that you could give the money straight to a research center for cancer, AIDs, leukemia, or a disease of major concern, and your million dollars would be the key to the cure of all present and future cases, and, God forbid, you ever get the disease, you'd be cured, or your loved ones or friends..........or, you could take the million bucks and just spoil the hell out of yourself...what would you do?? i would definitely give it to the research center

23. Why? (This is here only IF you didn't elaborate on your answer before. *probe probe*) because, if there was a garunteed way (like this) where i could help such a large number of people, i woudln't even think twice about it

24. Back to love...if love was a flavor of ice cream, what flavor would it be? cherry chocolate chip... just because that's my favorite flavor!

25. If love was a game...any kind of game (board game, verbal game, video game, casino game, etc...), what game would it be? Please be specific, and tell me WHY it would be that game!! ^-^ i have no idea... if love is a game, then it's not really love

26. Okay...so, if love were a person, would it be male or female? Why? it coudln't have a gender

27. And if love were a car, what kind of car would it be? the biggest car possible so there is lots of it!

28. Is love blind (as in, it is, and makes you, blind) or is it a new, bright, 20/20+ vision window to the world? definitely both

29. Do you think we'd all be better off if we just loved our pets? no

30. Is love more like a cat or a dog? Why?? a dog... they're usually more loving than cats

well i haven't written in here in a while!

this weekend was busy, but fun! on friday night i hung out with carolyn, ryan, beth, and anne. i haven't seen ryan in so long... it was really good to see him! i miss hanging out with him. on saturday i helped my mom out at our church's annual spring dinner. my mom is in charge of it so it's usually a pretty stressful time for her- she has fun, but it's so much work that she's definitely stressed. i sold tickets for a couple of hours; that's the best job because you're not in the hot kitchen, and you get to sit in one spot and just talk to people and sell them tickets! (yeah so maybe i'm a little lazy!) jess came to help me sell them; it was wonderful to see her too... we don't get to spend time together very often so it's great when i get to hang out with her, even if it's only for a little while! saturday night was jenny's 21st brithday party... that was fun... it was so great to be able to hang out with everyone, but i think we needed to be in an apartemnt about three to four times the size of the one we were in with that many people! at least i got to sleep in a bed! (thank you leah!!!) as i have said several times before, every time i'm in canandaigua i miss it so much... there are so many good memories there. (i love all of you guys so much!)

so you know those dreams that you have sometimes that are just wonderful, and that feel so real that when you wake up you think "damnit i want to go back to that place instead of waking up here!" i had one of those dreams last night... it was about being in quebec city (i went there twice while i was in high school with foreign language club and i loved it there). in the dream i was there with every single person that i would most want to be anywhere with, and we were having so much fun. the weather was perfect (not cold and snowy and muddy like it is here right now), and we were all so happy! i really want to go there again some day... it's such a great place! it feels like you stepped back in time to an entirely different world.

when is it going to be summer?!?! i am so sick of cold, and i'm so sick of school. the first half of the semester is always fine- i'm ambitious and motivated, and then the second half comes and i just count down the days until i don't have to go to class anymore! i've been thinking a lot about earth camp because whenever i think of summer that's what i think of! i have a bunch of new ideas for this year from things that i've learned from my education class and stuff! i'm so excited!!! this will probably be my last summer as mayfly though :-( :-( .... it's too expensive to pay for an apartment that we're not living in for two months, and it takes way too much of the money that i make over the summer so this summer we're probably going to pack up all of our stuff and put it in storage, then move into a new apartment in august. i really like my apartment now, but it's just too expensive to keep it over the summer. so then when we move into the other apartment, we're not going to move home for the summer. that way we won't be wasting money... and not only that- i will also need to take two or three classes next summer so i think it will be easier if i just stay here and take them, instead of trying to take them somewhere at home while i'm working at camp. every single year of earth camp has been such a wonderful experience!... did i mention I CAN'T WAIT for this summer?!?! :-D

jenny's friend's younger sister died last week, and jenny has mentioned when she thinks about it that it's so strange how quickly a life can end. "it could have been any of us," she said. this made me think too... she's right, it could be any of us at any time- no matter what age you are, you're not exempt from fate or death. it's so weird to think about how suddenly your life can change or end, and it really makes you think when someone your age dies. it makes me think of the garth brooks' song "if tomorrow never comes." the song says "tell that someone that you love, just what you're thinking of... if tomorrow never comes." it's so true... you should take every chance that you get to tell everyone that you love how much you love and care about them because tomorrow is not a guaruntee. so, in the spirit of that song, i want you to know (whoever is reading this) that i love you, and i care about you so much, and i'm always here for you! alright... sorry... didn't mean to be depressing...

okay well i guess it's time to do what i always do... read for one or both of my lit. classes. grrrr one of the books i'm reading now is really good though! the other one... not so good. i'm almost done with it though!

have a wonderful day!

If I were a month I would be: may
If I were a day of the week I would be: sunday
If I were a time of day I would be: sometime in the morning
If I were a planet I would be: saturn
If I were a direction I would be: east
If I were a piece of furniture I would be: a reclining chair
If I were a sin I would be: i don't know
If I were a liquid I would be: tang! hehe
If I were a tree, I would be: a willow tree
If I were a flower/plant, I would be: a daisy
If I were a kind of weather, I would be: a sunny and breezy summer day
If I were a musical instrument, I would be: a guitar
If I were an animal, I would be: a cat
If I were a color, I would be: light blue
If I were a vegetable, I would be: asperagus
If I were a sound, I would be: laughter
If I were an element, I would be: fire
If I were a car, I would be: some kind of convertible that's fun to drive!
If I were a song, I would be: relient k's "i'm getting into you" (i don't know if that's the title though) or "here i am Lord"
If I were a place, I would be: somewhere warm and peaceful
If I were a material, I would be: velvet
If I were a taste, I would be: sweet
If I were a scent, I would be: vanilla
If I were a word, I would be: au'joud hui (french for today)
If I were an object, I would be: a pillow
If I were a body part I would be: eyes
If I were a facial expression I would be: a smile
If I were a shape I would be a: heart
If I were a number I would be: 4
Above anything, I would be: happy :-)

Current Mood: bored

(i copy pasted this from jenny's profile so that's why a couple of the answers say that i agree with jenny)

FIRSTS
First job: wadsworth library
First screen name: pebblz1022
First self purchased tape: i don't remember... i think maybe alison craus? (however you spell that)... or possibly alanis morrisette
First funeral: my classmate, michael miller, in 6th grade
First piercing/tattoo: just my ears are pierced (i'm not a freak like my sister!)
First credit card: credit cards are evil- don't get one!
First big trip: florida and disney world!
First concert: matchbox 20 i think
First musician you remember hearing in your house: ummm... i don't know... probably a country singer

LASTS
Last big car ride: coming back here from break
Last kiss: al :-)
Last library book checked out: a book on nazi's last semester for my western civ. class
Last movie seen: in the theaters: starsky and hutch last night
Last beverage drank: water
Last food consumed: chex mix
Last phone call recieved: today from al
Last CD played: brand new
Last annoyance: alex woudln't walk downstairs and get the mail when all he was doing was sitting in a chair playing his guitar waiting for mike to come, and i was busy and in my pajamas!
Last soda drank: pepsi
Last ice cream eaten: chocolate chip cookie dough
Last time scolded: a couple of weeks ago by jenny and nana when i didn't take my medicine lol
Last shirt worn: potsdam sweatshirt
Last website visited: mapquest.com

I AM: procrastinating
I WANT: all of my work to be magically done without actually having to do it
I HAVE: a lot of work to do (lol see a theme here?!)
I WISH: it was summer! (i agree jenny)
I HATE: not having any motivation
I FEAR: spiders!
I HEAR: the people downstairs yelling
I SEARCH: for my slippers
I WONDER: why my educ. 106 professor finds it necessary to give us such an excessive amount of work every day!
I REGRET: the times that i have hurt alex
I LOVE: my friends and family soooo much!
I ACHE: my head :(
I ALWAYS: have soooo much reading to do!
I AM NOT: going to alex's show today bc i have soo much work to do grrrrr
I DANCE: whenever i can!
I SING: pretty badly, but whenever i can anyway!
I CRY: sometimes
I AM NOT ALWAYS: this lazy!
I WRITE: poems sometimes
I WIN: sometimes
I CONFUSE: myself sometimes! hehe
I NEED: to start doing work!
YES or NO: umm... i guess it would depend on the question
YOU KEEP A DIARY: just this one i guess
YOU LIKE TO COOK: yep
YOU HAVE A SECRET YOU HAVE NOT SHARED WITH ANYONE: i don't think so
HAVE A CRUSH: mmhm on this cute guitar playing brown haired guy ;-) :-D
WANT TO GET MARRIED: yes (to the cute guitar playing brown haired guy!!)
GET MOTION SICKNESS: sometimes, in the back seat
THINK YOURE A HEALTH FREAK: nope
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS: yep!
LIKE THUNDERSTORMS: yeah, most of the time
CURRENT HAIR COLOR: dark brown
EYE COLOR: brown
BIRTHPLACE: york, ny

FAVORITES:
NUMBER: 4
COLOR: blue and yellow
DAY: sunday
MONTH: may and june
SONG: ever: i love way too many songs to pick a favorite
SEASON: spring! (but if you asked me in the summer when it's 95 degrees outside and i'm chasing twelve 6 year olds around i'd probably say fall or winter!)
DRINK: swiss chocolate and coconut italian cream soda

PREFERENCES:
CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT: depends
CHOCOLATE MILK, OR HOT CHOCOLATE: hot chocolate in the winter...chocolate milk in the summer
MILK, DARK OR WHITE CHOCOLATE: milk
VANILLA OR CHOCOLATE: chocolate

IN THE LAST 24 HRS, HAVE YOU...
CRIED? nope
HELPED SOMEONE? mmhm
BOUGHT SOMETHING? mmhm - went grocery shopping at wal-mart supercenter (aka hell) last night
GOTTEN SICK? nope, but alex did- he puked up some lovely brown stuff... and missed the toilet (but hit the floor, the wall, the garbage can and the tub)- i knew you wanted to know that! :-P
GONE TO THE MOVIES? yep last night
GONE OUT FOR DINNER? had some mozerella sticks and cheese cake at denny's after the movie last night
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER: nope
TALKED TO AN EX?: nope
MISSED AN EX? : nope
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL?: just this one
HAD A SERIOUS TALK?: kind of
MISSED SOMEONE? yes
HUGGED SOMEONE? yes
FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS? nope
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND? nope

Would you ever:
1. Eat a bug?: probably not
2. Bungee jump?: nope
4. Kill someone? hmmmmmm..... hehe jk- NO!
5. Kiss someone of the same sex? sure
6. Have sex with someone of the same sex? nope
7. Parachute from a plane? hm... maybe... but probably not; i'm kind of a pussy
8. Walk on hot coals? nope
9. Go out with someone for their looks? maybe once... then i'd get to know them a little and see if i'm actually interested in them or not
11. Be a vegetarian? for lent!
12. Wear plaid with stripes? nope
13. IM a stranger? for what reason?
14. Sing Karaoke? sure
15. Get drunk off your Ass? mmhm... but not often
16. Shoplift? nope
17. Run a red light? not intentionally
18. Star in a porn video? nope
19. Dye your hair blue? probably not... i like my hair color
20. Be on Survivor? i'm gonna have to go w/jenny's answer on this one and say i'll just take the money!! hehe
21. Wear makeup in public? sure, but i never wear it anyway
22. Not wear makeup in public? sure
23. Cheat on a test? haven't done that since junior highschool- mrs. kingston-peace's spelling tests!
24. Make someone cry? not on purpose (i hope i never make anyone cry!)
25. Date someone more than 10 years older than you? i don't know maybe
26. Stay up all night? yep

okay NOW i HAVE to do work!!

Current Mood: lazy

well break is almost over- school starts again on monday... i have A LOT of work to do in the meantime though. grrr but break was great; i got to hang out with jenny and leah and adam and jordan and ben and bethany and mandy and caroyln and manda and i got to spend time with my family (and al, but that doesn't count bc i see him everyday!). i love being home and seeing everyone... i'm such a homebody. it's great to be back here too, though; it's great to be back where all of my stuff is, and where i'm not living out of a dufflebag, and it's great to be back here with al bc it's weird to go from living with him to sleeping in two different houses. york, ny will always feel like home, but home is also wherever alex is!- that's why i'm happy here, and why i never felt completely happy anywhere else in my first two years of college.

well today is going to be a fun filled day of cleaning and reading... i was supposed to read 416 pages over break, and i kinda read about... oh let's see.... 20. ooops! so i need to read approx. 133 pages a day for the next three days in order to catch up, on top of the other work that i need to get done before tuesday. it shouldn't be too bad, though bc i think the book will be pretty good.

i hope everyone is having a wonderful day!

p.s. i wish i had the ability to sleep past 9:00AM! grrrrr

Current Mood: determined

starting today i'm on break until next monday!! i'm glad that i don't have to worry about classes for a week, but i have so much work to do over break that it doesn't really even seem like a break. it'll be fun though- on sunday jenny, leah and i are going to jenny's house in lockport; jenny and i always have fun when we go there no matter what we do, and i'm excited that leah's coming this time too!! i didn't really feel like i knew leah that well until she was here for the weekend, and then we had so much fun and i feel a lot closer to her now, and i feel like i know her a lot better... maybe it was the whole standing in a 4x4 foot room with four other people wearing lingere thing that really made us all feel comfortable! hahaha i love you guys!

alright well i need to get things ready to go... we still haven't even figured out how long we want to be home for... oh well we'll see!

have a wonderful day everyone!!

Current Mood: hopeful

good morning!

today is ash wednesday, the first day of lent, and like last year, i'm giivng up meat again until easter. so as of today i will be hungry until april 11th. that's what happened last year- i was pretty much hungry for an entire 40 days. brendan said that it took him three months of being a vegitarian before he got used to it, so i guess that's why i didn't get used to it! alex is giving up meat too; since i know he won't make it the whole 40 days :-P we made a deal that if he does i'll pay for half the cost of a PS2. we'll see....

well i've got lots of work to do today so i guess i'll get started...

have a wonderful day!

Current Mood: busy

i just got back from going home for the weekend to go to the OM competition. we were at the competition all day and i just kept thinking about how much i miss OM... it was such a great part of my life, it meant so much to me and my friends, and it's the reason why alex and i got to know eachother and started dating. the primary reason that i was there was to watch mckenzie and kimberly (the twin daughters of family friends), and they did a wonderful job, and they WON!! so now they go on to states and since i'm only an hour away from binghamton, where states is held, i'm gonna go there and watch them too!! i'm excited!- i can live vircariously through them for the day! lol
i realize that many of you probably didn't understand that paragraph at all because you have no idea what OM is, and right now i'm way too tired to explain it, but ask jenny- i'm sure she knows by now! hehe- love you jenny!
last night i hung out with manda, jenny and be... we went bowling and then went to denny's where we were ignored for approx. 25 minutes until beth got up and talked to a manager. lol we were wondering what the hell was going on bc all the waitresses just kept walking by us- we'd see one walking toward our table and get excited, and then she'd vere to the right and go to another table. and we didn't even get anything free! grrrr it was lots of fun though, and i'm really glad that i got to hang out w/manda bc we don't get to hang out very much, and i miss her!
i got to watch beetlejuice this weekend too- the best (and strangest) movie ever! (thanks for buying it for be cory!!) i haven't seen that movie in like ten years; beth and i used to watch it pretty much every time we went to my grandma's... it was great. i noticed some things about it though from watching now that i've gotten older. for example, the movie is only rated PG, but at one point beetlejuice screams a sentence containing the word fuck and grabs his balls- i'm not sure that's appropriate for chlidren. lol bethany and i apprecieated the whole movie though!! it was great to hang out w/be this weekend too- i miss my little sister!- love you be!! i miss my other little sister too- good luck w/your new job mandy!
alright, well i think it's time for bed! i'm so tired!
good night everyone :-D

Current Mood: sleepy

okay so it seems like everyone has one of these, so i thought i'd be a follower and get one too!
i'm not really sure what i should write in here though...
i went to my advisor today (after finally finding out who she is!) and figured out that i'll have to be in school for two more years. that really isn't bad though, considering that i've changed my major countless times, and i didn't go to school for a semester. i feel pretty good about things now, as far as school goes; i feel a lot more motivated than i have ever been before, and i'm actually enjoying my classes for the first time since i started this whole college thing in the lovely north country two and half years ago. speaking of potsdam... i miss it up there... it was a nice place i just had a rough year and i guess i wasn't ready to be that far away from home, but i miss the people there. i wanna go up there and see amanda (side note: i get to be a bridesmaid in her wedding!!!- who's excited?!?!). i miss her- i haven't seen her in forever. and i miss jeni who i REALLY haven't talked to in forever. i'm probably gonna see mike on friday who i haven't seen in a year and half... i think we're gonna meet in albany for lunch since it's about an hour from both of us. it's strange how close you can be to people, then how much things can change, and how much time goes by without seeing them. I MISS YOU GUYS!
so anyway... other than school and stuff my life is going very well right now. i'm living with al (as i'm sure anyone reading this already knows!) and things are going wonderfully with us and i'm really happy (i love you al)!! all of my friends are the most amazing people in the entire world and i miss all of them... i think you should all move to oneonta!! you guys did come and visit a few weeks ago, which i guess is the next best thing!- i had such a great time that weekend!! it was so great to see everybody, and we all had lots of fun!! (come back soon!!)
by the way, jenny's my girlfriend... so we're gonna have to break it to alex and adam soon! hehe
speaking of friends, i was just talking to bob and he reminded me of something:
Hannukah Henry: "mayfly and starling hug alot"
hehe i love you starling and i miss you!
and i miss earth camp- when is the summer gonna start again?! i'm so sick of this cold crap!
okay well this has turned out to be an extremely long entry... especially since when i started writing this i had no idea what to write!
i hope everyone is wonderful... i love you all :-D (providing anyone even reads this! lol)

poop

Current Mood: cheerful